icarus

new things that are happening

1. going to go visit berkeley this weekend, hmmm
2. el co is almost over, work is making me sad now
3. there’s this boy i really like now
4. got rid of all my bad influences
5. almost free for good

my new computer doesn’t like me

good things

1. i got back in berkeley, probably, for real, hooray
2. i am doing really good at school right now
3. i am doing really good at work right now
4. i am doing really good at life right now
5. empowerment!!!
6. fuck yes

just some things

1. my computer broke, ie no internet
2. i have mono
3. no money for school
4. i’m losing hope

things i have grown to understand

1. i can’t account for a lot of things, but i can apologize for things i can account for
2. i finally love myself
3. love can outlast time, but
4. time makes fools of us all - eric temple bell
5. wednesday, april 15, is largely a lie

things i wish i could say but i never do

1. i’m insanely sensitive about people calling me names
2. sometimes i’m really negative and i try to rationalize it by saying i’m realistic
3. i think about what people would say at my funeral
4. i’m not brave
5. i’m really scared
6. i’m still in love with you and i wish you knew it

Pablo Neruda : Sonnet XI

Tengo hambre de tu boca, de tu voz, de tu pelo 
y por las calles voy sin nutrirme, callado, 
no me sostiene el pan, el alba me desquicia, 
busco el sonido líquido de tus pies en el día.

Estoy hambriento de tu risa resbalada, 
de tus manos color de furioso granero, 
tengo hambre de la pálida piedra de tus uñas, 
quiero comer tu piel como una intacta almendra.

Quiero comer el rayo quemado en tu hermosura, 
la nariz soberana del arrogante rostro, 
quiero comer la sombra fugaz de tus pestañas

y hambriento vengo y voy olfateando el crepúsculo 
buscándote, buscando tu corazón caliente 
como un puma en la soledad de Quitratúe.